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A letter to my beautiful daughter,

I left off with saying what a Profound, Intense, Painful experience;

I am more then honored to be a part of your life, any part, no matter how great or meager. Just being a part of your life is what gives me a reason to smile each day.

I cannot imagine you ever speaking of me with pride, let’s face it your mother is just a kid in a woman’s body! I am trying, something has to change.

I love you my Jumping Bean! When I look into your teenage eyes, I flash forward, that scares me too. Time goes by quite quickly for me now.

I just hope for more time with you……

More time to be a part of you, and whatever is going on in your life. A positive force in all that life has to offer you.

to be continued…….

XD xoxox

A letter to my daughter,

yes I am wring you a letter, a good old fashion letter.

It’s a lost art really. have a cofestio to make, I was really scared to become a mother.

So afraid of not being good enough. u  were born and had no words, no emotions, you couldn’t walk or eat on your own, it was scary

You smelled nice. At first you had some interest in me, you would follow me around with your eyes, watched every move I made. But that all changed. Soon you were Daddy’s little girl. It was just you and Dad against the world. Funny how somethings never change. Witch, by the way, I found vaguely insulting.

So I cruised along doing my thing. Making mistakes, many mistakes. But learning still all the while. such as; not really understanding how being a parent changes you. I do not remember the exact moment that things changed but they did. One minute i was impenetrable the next my heart was beating outside of my chest exposed to the elements.

Loving you has been the most Profound, Intence, painfull experience of my life.

To be continued..